Even if I know it is never healthy to fear or even if there seems to be no reason to fear, sometimes, it just gets into my nerves and I cannot simply disconnect myself from it. Tomorrow will be our last exam for the semester but as for me, some of us, not yet. We have pending remedial as soon as we get back from our month-long community exposure. Not yet. Just hold some more! This has been a reality in my academe when I entered medical school. I knew beforehand it would be tough however it was totally different when I took my first step after the other, one day after the other. My seemingly bold steps turned into small steps to even standing in tiptoe. Yes, as for me, it was like tiptoeing in a rope; carefully balancing with each step forward while holding fast to whatever there is to hold on. Yet now, I am just afraid. Undeniably afraid. The disciples, even when they personally walked with Jesus in His ministry, even when they became witnesses of His mirac...
“Here’s the one thing I crave from God, the one thing I seek above all else: I want the privilege of living with him every moment in his house, finding the sweet loveliness of his face, filled with awe, delighting in his glory and grace. I want to live my life so close to him that he takes pleasure in my every prayer.” Psalm 27:4