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God personally authored your painful story

Have you ever heard of a heartbreaking story and wondered afterwards how that person was able to overcome it? Or have you even attempted to share yours—that part that is jagged with all the sharp edges, the creases and crevices left from your experience of being stumbled at the rock bottom?

Last year was a sail amidst the roiling waves.  Just like Peter, when he already began walking in the water yet he sunk because he was moved to fear from the wind, I, with all my frailties, almost turned my back from it but the Lord compelled me to venture the waters and to even dive deeply to it.

My untimely brokenness led to a catapult of faith. I thought I was spiritually growing but when God allowed such painful experience, there I realized I was standing at complacency. I desperately need growing and maturing without stopping.

I have learned so much from last year and if there’s something that I want to share, it is that…

“Your painful story does not have to finish beautifully for you to share it. You can, in all its messiness.”

It does not have to be in order, done in a neat and tidy script before God can use it. It does not even have to have its conclusion with all the answers to the “whys.”

Sometimes, healing comes from admitting that you are not ok. Sometimes, healing comes from showing your weakness. Sometimes, healing comes from telling your painful story, that thing that makes you feel utterly worthless, because God can use it even if it is seemingly tattered at the moment.

Never be afraid of being a broken thing. Strange as it may be, it’s in the breaking that there is life.

Just like a wave that keeps tossing the shore no matter how it is being pulled away, it has no beauty unless it crushes and breaks.

There will be days when you wish to hide your scars, days when you want to escape the bearing of it. But if there will be no mark, how can you ever say that you loved? Scars are actually signs of how you loved. Even Jesus was scarred because of His love for you and for me.

So, if you are breaking apart, break deep. Don’t fear it. Don’t even take pride in your own strength to overcome it. Instead, plunge into it because the only way through an overwhelming wave is to dive deep into the depths of water and be moved by the Living Water and be transformed with the rising current of His Grace.

What is it that God is calling you to stop concealing and just trust Him in sharing? God makes all things work for the good of those who love Him. God can use yours for the healing of others. It is not about the greatness of your story. It is about the greatness of our God.

The Lord is faithful even in the pain and loss. Gracias 2016! To God be the glory.


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